Iona return…

In January I’ll be returning to Iona, to Lagandorain and the Hostel, for another three weeks: time to tune in and focus on the beauty and clarity of the place. I’m aiming to make drawings, writing, monotypes, small paintings and a stop-frame animation of the monotypes as they develop. I’ll be working listening to Bach again, and looking forward to it being very quiet and whispery…

Saint with Child and Angel at throat 33 x 24 cm 2015   Madonna Saint with Child stretching upwards  33 x 24 cm 2015   Madonna Saint with Child on Knee  33 x 24 cm 2015 ink on paper

 

 Feeding from the fire below Watercolour on canvas 50 x 80 cm Kate Walters 2012

Iona Residency October – early November 2015

The Trembling Brink of Transformation?… a report on my residency by John Maclean, owner of Ionaartresidencies….

Kate Walters left today having completed her four week residency at Iona Hostel. The good news is that she is coming back in January for another month or so. Yesterday we held an open studio in the Hostel so that islanders and visitors to Iona could see what Kate has been up to. An afternoon sun warmed the common-room in the hostel and a good crowd of people came to meet and talk with Kate and to enjoy a glass of wine. Kate introduced her work and responded to an interesting range of questions. In keeping with her work the mood in the room was reflective and thoughtful. You could sense that people felt an affinity with her work.

Kate is a listener. She listens to her psyche and dreams and an to altogether more ancient response to the land than that which we currently know; what Thomas Carlyle described as ‘ the ancient dialect’. Her work is in part an exploration of this dialect. It explores place through archetype, symbol, the animal world and the older religions. This is home territory for Kate -she is quite comfortable in the company of the ‘Sheela’s (the Sheela na gigs).

Kate’s work isn’t easy in the sense that it neither makes assertions nor statements. It seems to be deliberately un-emphatic. The effect is to unsettle, to make us alert and create a pause. We find ourselves listening. The image that comes to me of her work is of that moment, in the stillness, when you hear a faint and tremulous bird call. You ask yourself if you even heard it (was it your imaginings?) and are silent and poised, listening for it again. You are completely present. In a review of her work art critic Laura Gascoigne gets it dead on when she says ‘It is this sense of trembling on the brink of transformation that lends Kate’s shadowy forms psychological substance’.

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I love this particular piece. There is something haunting, archaic and incredibly tender about it. I also like text that guides our responses and opens possibilities. Sitting pondering it I realise that this figure sums up, for me, much that is precious and true of Iona.  Kate has gone to the heart of the matter.

John Maclean, Lagandorain, Iona.

 

The two posts below were first published on the Iona Art Residencies blog post: ionaartresidencies.wordpress.com

I first came to Iona when I was aged 18, to take photographs for my ‘A’ level photography course… a long time ago. Then I came here again, nursing a broken heart, in my thirties, with my young son who was then aged about 5. I was especially entranced by the abundant vegetables growing beside the Abbey, and I was grateful to a generous person attached to the Abbey who suggested we help ourselves to the salads growing there.

My last visit was around five years ago when my husband and I camped at Fidden Farm on Mull, and every day we crossed to Iona, and walked around, sat on the beaches; generally falling in love with the magic here all over again. I am always inspired by wild places. Something in me responds to the sense of them being completely themselves, raw, fine and pure. There is a quality of soar-i-ness which my heart enjoys when I come to these wild places, whether in Italy or Cornwall, Dartmoor or Iona.

beach shadow

When I saw the residency opportunity I did not hesitate to apply. I already knew about the particular quality of beauty which Iona embodies, so I knew what to expect – up to a point.

I arrived on a  beautiful sunny day from two days’ drawing at Glasgow School of Art, working with staff and students making monotypes employing the technique called ‘becoming the hollow bone’. I was loaded with luggage and materials, so I was relieved to see John and his partner Rachel waiting to greet me. I was made very welcome, and introduced to many islanders as the resident artist, which felt such a privilege.

bothy view

hello bothy

I arrived carrying a deep tiredness and I knew that part of my reason for wanting to come here was to be restored in myself. I was delighted when  John showed me the large byre-studio, and the beautiful and charming bothy where I would sleep (I’ve managed  a week in there but now need two nights in the hostel to prepare me for my weekend trip to London… where I’m going to be resident artist at the National Open Art competition show at the Royal College of Art…@noac). My favourite time in the Bothy is early morning; lying in bed watching the light through the curtains gain in strength…. then opening the door to be greeted by birdsong, hesitant and fine; the smell of water in peat, and the green scent of willow.

inside bothy

 

 

 

I’ve been working long days in the studio, making a series of drawings on pages which I’ve taken from an old copy of the Bhagavad Gita, The Song Divine, and which I’d already prepared with gesso.

preparing to make monotype by storm lantern

I’m working into them in my usual intuitive way (with watercolours and inks) , responding to the strong spirit of place, and how I feel/experience it in a deep way in my body. I have been for walks on the magnetic and extraordinarily beautiful North beach (Traigh An T-Suidhe ) near John’s croft, and I’ve tuned into the subtle energetic life there. Yesterday I found a mighty tower of green serpentine; I held it in my hands, it was an object of such power and beauty!

Still afternoon

My dreams have become more intense and I’ve been able to see clearly and directly how they are illuminating my practice.

Port nam Mairtir

Calving clouds

Meeting you O my fluttering Heart

It’s been great meeting guests and staff working here, and spending evenings in the warm and comfortable kitchen/living room. There are some very interesting and varied books in there too. I loved Ice Bears and Kotick by Peter Webb, and I found these special lines at the close of the book, written by an Inuit:

And yet there is only

One great thing

To live.

To see in huts and on journeys

The day that dawns

And the light that fills the world.

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sand waves

Last night was especially windy, with a storm lashing the island. I had started a new book: The Curious Earth… and I was laughing so loudly at the description of a man watching his false teeth fly out if his mouth, and away into the night … as he stood in a gale on a ship…. that my laughter drowned out the sound of the gales buffeting the iron-clad walls.

As a gardener back in Cornwall I am delighted by the gardens and flowers on Iona. Outside The Low Door (excellent for fine foods and books on cooking) there are two large buckets producing towers of most deliciously scented sweet peas even at the end of October. Iona is a place of startling surprises like these flowers, and the diminutive Post Office beside the beach – which surprisingly sells herbal remedies too. I find that being here, being fully awake and absorbing everything with my heart completely open, fuels my work and is resulting in a rich cross-fertilisation.

Having longer periods of time to focus on my work uninterrupted has proved a great boon for me, and I will hope to continue this routine when I am back home in Cornwall.

After my short time in London I will return ready to immerse myself at an even deeper level with my work, when I hope to make some larger pieces in watercolour and oil. Next blog in ten days or so!

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praying figure abbey

Images and text copyright Kate Walters 2015

 

Kate Walters blog part two, Iona, November 2015

pink sunset

A starling in the byre, and sunshine. My dog gazes upwards, somewhat anxiously. I don’t know how the bird found her way in here. This morning the sounds were of thick water and a thin delicate birdsong. The path sucked at my boots, the grasses too sodden to sing in this morning’s winds. The light was bright after a night of the bothy imitating a boat, with the bed shaking and quivering like a trapped animal.

I see the breast of the bird, it is pale from beneath, so she blends with the sky when she flies. I open the door, she flies down from the rafters and out through the doorway in an arc of relief and triumph.

Body as Constellation

In the days I’ve been here I’ve kept a sketchbook of drawings, a still anchor amongst the swirl of works I’ve been making. The drawings, the monotypes, the notes and the watercolours have created a conversation between themselves, and I’ve been supported by the fusion, the generation which has occurred.

Iona evening clouds

When I first arrived and the weather was kind and warm, I wanted to immerse myself  in the water, feel the cleansing power of diamonds suspended in and around my body. I  made drawings about this communion of skin, flesh, and water. A body crouching, or bent double as if horse-borne, foot placed on some subtle shore, hands stroking a watery surface in prayer.

I asked the Water to come to that place in me

Reflected in the crystalline water have been extraordinary clouds. I’ve spent time photographing them, and feeling the beings which dwell in them momentarily. Related to this, I’ve also made a drawing which recalls a vision I had many years ago which showed me how a soul can evolve: I saw one face dissolving into another, going back through time, face upon face each melding into one another, each more beautiful than the last, until a holy face came into clear view.

Sketchbook drawing She who gives birth drawing after vision about evolution

How she gives birth to the evolution of consciousness

I’ve also been considering boundaries: of watery bodies, of soul bodies, of soul family members recognising one another, and of the energy which such dynamics can fire.

That which is incomprehensible to an Organ of Sense (Womb antennae)

That which is incomprehensible to an Organ of Sense with Vision Lance

to Staffa

A trip to Staffa to see the caves led me to think once again about the feminine body, the giantess who holds; and of the correspondence with our own bodies, with all their little fjords, rivers, caves, and arches. I closed my eyes and followed the free movement of my left hands, trusting in what it would show me. This as I sat in the cave, awed by the integrity of its presence.

Fingal's Cave

Staffa basaltA guest in the hostel spoke to me about Julian of Norwich and her visions, or ‘Showings’ as they are called. I will seek these out on my return to Cornwall.

I wanted more and more to meet Water, to have her hold me. A drawing of this impulse became a figure with a matrix, and a bird around her, holding her. This drawing developed into a series ‘And I am the bird’s egg, she my nest..’

Sketchbook drawing body with Water prayer October 2015

..which grew into a series about the ‘Bird with Womb to give my Consciousness…’

Bird with Womb to give my consciousness

The dreams which came as I slept here informed the studio work and my insights about the work which came. My father who died some years ago appeared in a dream, looking younger then I ever remember him, and somehow golden. The perfume of this dream infused a piece about a happy Buddha figure with a cape of breasts.

Happy Buddha

Sketchbook drawing Buddha with Breast cape

John MacLean has lent me a book about Sheela-na-gig and as I read I see through my drawings and notes how I have anticipated and tuned into the spirit of this place in a very clear and strong way.

Priestesses with Staff

How the Sky opens like my Tail

Sketchbook drawing after visit to the Abbey Iona

sketchbook drawing The Mystery

As my last week here begins, I awake feeling that I will just about be able to bear the leave-taking of this place, and the return to my other life.

I have my first day off, and head of towards St Columba’s Bay in the dazzling November sunshine. It’s a long walk past the jetty towards the machair and the West beaches. Wet and rocky we climb to high lakes of dark water before descending to green openness, cattle, and sheep. The round pebbles invite searching. I become as someone gathering fruit or jewels and I think to myself that you would never see sheep, or dogs, on their hands and knees turning over stones searching for that special bright one. I leave with heavier pockets. I had promised to send a couple of serpentine pieces to people who will never make this trip.

I had a strong desire to re-visit a place I last experienced in my thirties. It is the Hill of the Angels. I set off up a barely discernable rocky path over bogs and drops and tiny animal tracks through heather. Following my nose I head north-east until the great swelling mounds of dried heather, a sprawling bonsai forest, invite me to rest once again. When I lay upon this springy heather bed some twenty years ago up on this high place I thought this was the closest I could ever come to Heaven in this life. So I lay myself down again and gave thanks for the return to this most glorious of holy hills.And the sky was blue, the sun warm.

Inner work reflecting the drawings I’ve made is coming into clearer focus for me; as are the possible outcomes I see this work leading towards – a book, a show of works in a public space, and I hope, all being well, a return to this wonderful place to re-establish the connection I feel here, the sense of being in a place where I experience the sensation of being held in a harbour which fits me, holds me perfectly at ease, at rest.

The days here seem to move through their hours more quickly than anywhere I’ve ever been. As my last week passes I am working with oils, trying to find their voice. The rain came in again today so Marc kindly lit the stove. The studio-byre was immediately brightened and warmed. I sat on the rocking chair with my dog, cuddled her, wished that time would slow a little.

A little later Luke appeared with a plate of freshly made bread and butter. So simple, so kind, and so delicious. Lysanne has said that as tomorrow is her last day she will be making a last night brownie. It has been such a joy to come into the kitchen/dining room to find a plate of shortbread, ginger bread or brownies with a note on the top -‘please help yourself’.

At home I cook every night but here cooking has not been on my radar at all…so it has been a real treat to receive these expressions of generosity. The last hostel I stayed in was in Venice, and there was a tiny shared dining room without cooking facilities. This hostel has been the warmest, cleanest, friendliest place I could imagine and I have been so very happy staying here.

 

 

 

Blog notes, third blog…written at home, reflecting on time on Iona, drawings, my notes, my heart flung back up there….

The two feathers in my notebook recall a walk,  a day in a soft grey-green light field muted by violet, by pink, by the breath of birds, by absence, by the curve of the sea’s arm against my shoulders. There is a pulse in my praying here. And one speaks in the body.

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There is the bruised face, the open face, the face which opens, reaching skywards. The drawing shows me.

The praying figure waiting beneath the green lights at night, just inside the Abbey doors, to welcome.

I draw fire, or trees, or plants beneath his feet.

The bright orb which arrives, supported by prayers or openings regards me patiently. I bend on all my knees, I see my double in this place, pink bands surround us.

I return from London: first drawing, a bird with outstretched wings, I write: “When bird flies through my heart the emptiness is gathered up.”

RCA London     Sand drawing with shell   Head in Gold

 

I dream of holding horse’s hooves in my hands. They are broken, split. I paint them and bind them, make them bright and full of colour. I draw the dream; see that I am the horse, that I am binding my hands, restoring them.

 

Another drawing recalling my need to be in the sea, to breathe it, to feel it swirl about me; now it is the womb which radiates, the motion borrowed from the waves gives my womb her power. Little prayers come and rest upon my outstretched arms. Like the birds in the byre they arrive with joy and song, swooping and bright.

On my last night there I had two very bright dreams. One was of a Saint, probably Saint Columba, standing very still, full of poise and certainty and stillness; he was holding a staff. And the other was of a column of bright rainbow light moving between Iona and the sky, from a slightly raised position, a small hill. I haven’t yet made any work from any of the hills, so this will be part of my next body of work. The Hill of Tongues, Dun I and the Hill of the Angels.

I enjoyed very much the museum at the Abbey. There is a powerful atmosphere surrounding all the crosses, and it was good to learn more about the Book of Kells, which was probably made and completed on Iona. Discovering this has made me want to learn about this very beautiful book, and that will also be part of my next visit to the island.

Work made during my last week  of the residency revolved around kneeling, humility, the need to focus and have clarity; awareness of one’s double, and the vision which accompanies that knowing.

The sound of the wind in the grasses in the morning when I open the door; the circling of goldfinches, the scattering of rabbits as I walk; a bee in my ear, the sparrows in the byre where I work; the pink rose growing there and the falling of her petals; the mice at night leaving their traces on my drawings; the moon, the sun’s afternoon hallelujah into the sea a cloak of violet swooping down.

 

I am very grateful to John MacLean for providing this wonderful haven and glorious opportunity; and to Marc, Lysanne, Emily and Luke for good company and great cooking (of cakes and bread!); to Mike of Iona Craft Shop for his friendliness and support; to Noor for her kindness and understanding;  to Tanya for lending me her lap-top, and to Andrew for all his help with the photographs. I return to Cornwall full of gifts and joy, so happy having made new friends.

Abbey Museum detail book of Kells installation    light    Lagandorain Dawn halo

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

NOA AIR at RCA London

ARTISTS IN RESIDENCE
The 2015                      Artists is Residence

The beauty of the Artist in Residence (AIR) is that no residency is the same. Organisation and artist come together in collaboration to form a new and special relationship where the artist works outside their usual studio space, wearing their hearts on their sleeves and sharing their most intimate creative processes with us – aren’t we lucky!
We were overwhelmed with the number of applications we received for our NOA AIR Programme this year and in a very difficult process, we selected eight incredibly talented artists for their variety in medium and for their colourful careers, who will be in residence for 2-3 days each.
We feel very privileged to announce this year’s Winter Exhibition Artists in Residence: 
Richard Twose | Julia Davis-Nosko | Renata Fernandez |  Kate Walters | Bartosz Beda | Heloise Delegue | Julien Masson | Lucy Williams
View their profiles and the AIR Schedule on our website here to find out more, with a sneak preview of their work and find links to their websites, social media, videos and blogs. 

Kate will have drawings from Iona, watercolours, experimental work, catalogues…she’ll be there from 24 – 26 October, from around 10 – 5 pm daily….

Humanimal Show with Tim Ridley, Richard Ballinger, Ken Spooner, Jesse Leroy-Smith, Michael Rees

Tim Ridley is putting together an exhibition of painting, drawing and assemblages ‘humanimal’, funded by an Arts Council England grant, will be from the 4th to the 13th of December at the PZ gallery, 7 Coinagehall St, Penzance TR18 4AY.
The work will explore our relations with animals in a time when we face the possibility of mass extinctions and loss of habitat on a huge scale. A local class of Primary school children will make animations for the exhibition.
Six invited artists, Kate Walters, Richard Ballinger, Ken Spooner,  Jesse Leroy Smith, Michael Rees will also contribute work.
The private view will be on the Friday the 4th of December at 6:30 pm     Tim Ridley > Sculpture, assemblage, collage and photography – News
Un-maned space mission thumbnail small fileMr Foxy thumbnail samll file       Baboon and the city thumbnail A gradual realisation that I carry a responsibility towards the ‘others’ in society has lead me to this painterly exploration of the strange and mysterious relationship we have with animals in todays society. Moving to Cornwall has allowed me time and space to make more in depth work. Exploring on foot the wildness of West Penwith and it’s animals acts as a catalyst for future work. To complete the picture the other like minded artists I have met here both inspire and aid my practice.Humanimal will be an exciting exploration of the dialogue between humans and animals at this critical time for all species who share this planet. Tim Ridley.

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This theme is very close to my heart. Stepping into the body of an animal, or having an animal stand watch over you, is a theme I often work with. New work explores the coming together of saints and animals, and the part of animals in their stories is crucial. For me animals represent the instinctual , wild part of our natures which is so often ignored, silenced, or forgotten. Animals can awaken in us a gentle way of seeing, of watching over, or responding with truthfulness and immediacy. They can also be a source of power, vision, protection, knowing and reassurance. They can remind us of who we are.
The Precious Sister Kate Walters 55 x 76 cm 2015 detail        Made him with a thought Kate Walters 69 x 55 cm 2015 second detail  Details of new work

New work in my studio, in the garden, with poems…feminine group

I’ve been working quietly enjoying the sense of the the garden taking a long last  breath before the quietening of autumn. In the studio the light is lower through the windows, and I am listening again to Van Morrison’s great album No Guru, No Method, No Teacher. My little dog Frankie is still beneath my feet at my easel, although his illness is stronger now and each day is a precious gift for us to treasure.

I’ve been working slowly and steadily on a piece which took many days to show itself to me. There is a deep dark sea like field in which a child, an animal and a feminine figure are held. A womb of Earthiness, or space, or of consciousness. It is also a kind of gum, or jaw, of a celestial mouth:the feminine figure is held as a tooth about to emerge, a baby about to born, or a plant about to move from Earth to Air. She is crowning, as it is said of babies whose birth is imminent. So she is newborn and also wise woman – both at once.

Child      Newborn wise woman

In the garden there are still many flowers and it is a joy to walk there in the mornings with old Frankie as he potters. The light is low and bright, the tomatoes assuming so many voluptuous forms – I love them.

dahlia    tomatoes

tomato    Frankie

 

The group of artists and poets which I brought together a year ago is working towards a show at Newlyn Art Gallery as part of the Transition project, opening March 8th 2016 and running for a week. The show will be called Drawing down the Feminine. Our focus is on the sacred feminine…here are a few words I wrote recently about my response to the theme:

Drawing down… also The Feminine draws down, something about the Feminine being discrete, a living entity both within us and around us; high above, beneath our feet. That which holds, which draws in, which contains, which surrounds; which supports, which guides with a whisper; who knows about generative absence and the taking back of spent things…

One of my projects on Iona will be working with the poems of Ian Siddons-Heginworth. I’ve already begun tuning into them in my sketchbook.

Here are a few of my thoughts: the coolness of words, the distance of speech; words without scent or flavour, coolness, dampness or cycle implied. I cannot lie down on words, you do not hold me, give me impulses in my hips, but I can draw about your words

rising like vapour from the surface of God’s dream                   (this lovely phrase by Ian)

 

Iona, Glasgow and London, NOA

During October I’ll travel to Glasgow School of Art to work with the students using my hollow bone technique of tuning in (details in an earlier post, with description by Professor Penny Florence). This is also the way I worked with Marc Almond when I made the original drawings for his current album, the Velvet Trail.

Velvet Trail album details of work Kate Walters       Memories of Sea Monotype

My Minotaur monotype on Gampi paper 45 x 61 cm
My Minotaur monotype on Gampi paper 45 x 61 cm

Afterwards I will travel to Oban and catch the ferry and coach to the Isle of Iona where I’ll be in residence for three weeks, living in a shepherds bothy and using the studio at the hostel there. I’m really excited about my visit to Scotland and by the thought of tuning into the sense of place on  beautiful Iona. It is known as a ‘thin’ place where the veil between this world and the next is very thin.

Approaching Iona   Iona   Iona beach

Kate on Iona

During my time on Iona I’ll return to London for three days to be one of the Artists in Residence at the Royal College of Art, with the National Open Art competition. I’ll have drawings from Iona with me to show and sell, and I’ll also be inviting visitors to sit beside me so I can tune into them, becoming the hollow bone, to produce bespoke drawings….I’ll be there from October 24 – 26 and I’m really excited about this too!

 

Discerning Eye success

I entered these works for the Discerning Eye, which is held in The Mall Galleries, London, later in the autumn. Creature of Milk gives Birth was selected – the first image below:

Creature of milk gives birth 23 x 25 cm 2015 small file

Horse consciousness provides a cradle KW small file

Horse Consciousness provides a Cradle

 

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This work is about the correspondences which can occur between the approaching of animal consciousness – with all the gifts it can bestow – and the clarity of fecund, embodied creativity.

Voting link please for my work Pierced by Love, National Open Art competition…

http://www.thenationalopenartcompetition.com/gallery2.php…

I’d be very grateful if friends and those who like my work could vote on the National Open Art World vote page for my work Pierced by Love, which came after my beloved Missis Darling died, and then she visited me in a dream, giving me her skin as a gift for vision and protection…

You need to go to the web page, find the world Vote section, either enter the title of my work, or find the image and click on it, then give your name and click VOTE!

The closing date is towards the end of August…thank you!

Pierced by Love small file   Pierced by Love

Jam on the Marsh

In early July I travelled east to Kent, to Romney Marshes, for Jam on the Marsh – a predominately musical event in London and the Romney Marshes.

My venue was Fairfield Church. It was a damp morning as I set out across the Marsh seeking the church. I saw it from some way off, a beautiful form on the flat green ocean.

Hundreds of sheep skittered away as we crossed the fields carrying drum, paper and inks.

I had come to make my hollow bone monotype drawings in response to energetic charges I received from co-creators…

Fairfield Church work space for JAM KW July 2015      Kate at Fairfield Church Jam on the Marsh July 2015

Inside the church it was beautiful, peaceful and spacious. Little white painted closed pews felt like little boats for prayer. I chose one with beside a window, and lit a candle, set out my inks, printing plate, drum and papers. Soon people arrived and for the next two days I worked with musicians, composers, interns, and students to create bespoke drawings from dreams, incidents, or from messages I picked up from the energetic fields surrounding people.

The experience was intense, emotional, powerful, and rewarding. I was happy with the drawings I made in response, and everyone took away their co-created drawing.

Kate Fairfield Church July 2015 for JAM     Fairfield Church interior, work space for JAM KW July 2015

My workspace in a pew, Fairfield church JAM July 2015     working in the church July 2015 JAM KW    working with co-creator JAM 2

Embodying the Blue   Kindly Wolf   horse consciousness

mountain spirit drawing    Walk on the marsh

International Times link to article on Venice and excerpts from my article for Earthlines…

Here is the link to the short review I wrote about Venice, where I made a shamanic intervention in the Arsenale (details in an earlier post).
The July issue of Earthlines has a great feature on my work and my approach to making it. Here is part of it…

Animals make Wings for Mary/Riding into Darkness on my Horse-of-Music-Body

The rich darkness I create with layers of colour and which I slowly dive into with my brush represents the unknown, the fecund, the chaotic, the latent, the productive. It represents a field of beauty, a meadow about to come awake to yield fruit. It is the dark womb, bodily knowing, the place of origin, of beginnings, of the ten thousand things. The darkness is also a garden, dark soil, deep space. It is nothingness and the place where all things are born. I work without fear of this place. My shamanic training showed me that all things are connected, that bones, fingers and faces are shared and mirroring.

You go into the dark in order to find answers, little holes to swim through, big skies to fly in. In the dream-dark the animals come to show you their four sides and the gifts of their mouths; they lend you their exquisite hearing, their gift of knowing the secrets of the skin, and the vision which knows without ego or persuasion.

How animals are regarded is key: the skins we inhabit, our shared bodies of so many sisterly organs. My work is about negotiating a mending of the caesura between human and animal, and inspiring greater appreciation of the natural world.

 

A favourite book is Hunger Mountain by David Hinton where he talks about an opening of consciousness.. “No “I” perceiving but simply (the moment of) perception, the opening of consciousness become for example a new understanding of our relationship with animals, nature, the cosmos…..”

And about the significance of the bow, the spiritual gesture offering the centre of identity to something beyond. “Meditation as perhaps the most fundamental form of bowing, for in meditation the centre is replaced by the opening of consciousness and all of that elsewhere that fills it.”

To walk in mountains is another form of bowing according to Hinton; when I read these words I realised it is what I do when I walk in mountains. I am constantly bowing.

The first time I visited Norcia (or Nursia, in English), en route to Castelluccio in the Sibillini National Park, I visited the church built over the birthplace of St Benedict. It is also a centre of Benedictine monks. We were welcomed to their services. Sitting listening to the plainchant, watching their prayers and songs as they bowed from the waist, dressed all in white, dazzling with inner brilliance I was extremely moved. In my work ‘ my dog keeps watch as I pray’ I bend from the waist and my body blends with that of my dog as she stands watching over me – as my horse used to when I would lie on the floor of her stable. Hinton calls it the bow of beauty, in which for example mountain hawk and person are woven together in the opening of consciousness.

In the house where I grew from a child, there was a large print of one of the famous French cave paintings. I only recently realised how important this was to the sowing of visual seeds within me. Hinton calls the caves the earth’s birthing chambers. He wrote that this is where objectifying began, when objects began to push themselves outside themselves, and consciousness saw a gap between self and landscape, self and world. It was the originary moment according to Hinton when human self-awareness began.

Dreams are vital to my life and practice, becoming subtle signposts on my path: Here are a few examples…Of putting something white – gesso?  – in a bowl in the freezer to cool, but some hours later when I opened the freezer door I could see that the bowl which held it was boiling hot. This happened twice. I felt that it was something to do with the fiery spirit which won’t be cooled or dulled.     Of dancing in a circle, and my body becoming a white semi-transparent musical instrument.     Of my horse coming, resting her face against my chest for me to stroke her eyes.    Of my recently-deceased beloved dog coming to give me her skin as a magical, protective gift.

In another dream there was a bear with a nose burning with flames. Many people tried to extinguish it but it would not be put out. When my mother died I saw her in a dream. She was telling me that her body was going to a new church which burned with a flame which did not consume and which would never be put out.

 

 

Studio notes:

From time in the garden: the weight of seeds draw the stem back towards the ground, the earth, their birthplace and their resting place, their new beginning.

My intention with my work:  if composed of fine enough, refined-enough elements, to vibrate on  a  level sufficient to become, or act as, doorways to the numinous.

On being a Creature with sky ears. Having blue ears of sky.

Music is the Horse which carries me into the unknown. I need to vibrate at the same frequency in order to reach clarity. Horse above me, keeping watch, music also keeping watch over, as an animal singing outside the scope of my ears in ordinary reality…

 

In Edinburgh last year, a little lost, finding a wonderful bookshop and becoming as a bird finding her nest when I discovered these lines in the book Letters on Cezanne by Rilke:

“Flower muscle, slowly pulling open/the anemone’s vast meadow morning,/until the lord sky’s polyphonic light/comes pouring down into it’s womb;…”

Sonnet 11.5  from Sonnets to Orpheus

Milk running, bruise cheek, monotype 45 x 61 cm 2015
Milk running, bruise cheek, monotype 45 x 61 cm 2015